Saturday, May 28, 2011
Dear Leslie,
**I couldn't post a comment on your damn blog, so I'm just gonna post it here.
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May 2nd, 2011 (03:43 pm)
I try and avoid thinking as long term as possible.
Yeah it’s great to plan ahead and such, and of course the further the better, in theory, but I always keep in mind that I’m an overthinker. I take simple concepts and stretch them out mentally. The more ahead of myself I get the more variables and possibilities I open up that I have to contemplate, which leads to more thinking.
And that’s detrimental to my cool calm exterior.
Keep it short, keep it simple.
^Me in a nutshell. Except maybe the calm exterior part. hehe.
You know what killsss me? My blog has no format or pattern. It's like a total mash up of irrelevant/somewhat relevant things. It's all ovah the place. I guess it really does represent me :/ .....I try. Sometimes I get on this perfectionist shit. Clearly, none of the stuff I write is perfected (to my standards at least) but....I still get this unsettling feeling looking at my posts. It's some half-assed sh**. Then when I try to fluff it up, I'm still like.....this is some verbose bs man. It's like cutting a christmas tree.
Be perfect.................!
Sometimes my insecurities and doubts are so crippling, and I don't want to expose that part of me that acts with uncertainty. Don't wanna front, this is an issue. I'm hesitant to give out too much. I just don't know. I need help ):< like...I choose to who and when to give because I can't consistently be a certain way to everyone. It's a downer. I have a distorted self image. can't. function. So what is the solution to this problem? Look at the dude above I just quoted from. He's smart, he knows himself well and knows what he needs to limit about himself. But what's more applaudable other than taking precautions to not overthink, is to simply not overthink. It's like the best way would be thinking long term in moderation, rather than not thinking long term at all. Because if you're just all *avoid avoid, then you won't be able to think long term when you actually need to, when it's actually beneficial to you. Think about that! It's like when an alchoholic knows not to go to parties to avoid putting himself in risky situations where alchohol is present. Why not just tackle the problem directly and not be an alchoholic period. Is it really out of his control? Or isn't addiction a "choice" like many have said. Because suckily, you won't stop being an achoholic until you can sit with it in front of your face and make yourself not want it. Face the problem, hasn't that always been the right way to deal? Nonetheless, avoidance indicates some type of self awareness. But I guess acknowledgement is not fixation. It's only the first step to fixation. I seem to like making useless distinctions. Gotta cut back on that a bit.
We as human beings have many minds--the over thinker, the passive aggressive, the uncertain, the assertive, and I like how your blog reflects that. I think you're absolutely right in saying that avoiding the mind that you don't like is not the answer, but facing it, getting to know it, finding what's good about it, learning to control it, and putting it on and taking it off like a familiar shirt. AND THINKING IS GOOD; NO DISTINCTION IS USELESS. You inspire me, gurl! Embrace your many minds and be a human being!!
MWAH~! <3
-Julie
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May 2nd, 2011 (03:43 pm)
I try and avoid thinking as long term as possible.
Yeah it’s great to plan ahead and such, and of course the further the better, in theory, but I always keep in mind that I’m an overthinker. I take simple concepts and stretch them out mentally. The more ahead of myself I get the more variables and possibilities I open up that I have to contemplate, which leads to more thinking.
And that’s detrimental to my cool calm exterior.
Keep it short, keep it simple.
^Me in a nutshell. Except maybe the calm exterior part. hehe.
You know what killsss me? My blog has no format or pattern. It's like a total mash up of irrelevant/somewhat relevant things. It's all ovah the place. I guess it really does represent me :/ .....I try. Sometimes I get on this perfectionist shit. Clearly, none of the stuff I write is perfected (to my standards at least) but....I still get this unsettling feeling looking at my posts. It's some half-assed sh**. Then when I try to fluff it up, I'm still like.....this is some verbose bs man. It's like cutting a christmas tree.
Be perfect.................!
Sometimes my insecurities and doubts are so crippling, and I don't want to expose that part of me that acts with uncertainty. Don't wanna front, this is an issue. I'm hesitant to give out too much. I just don't know. I need help ):< like...I choose to who and when to give because I can't consistently be a certain way to everyone. It's a downer. I have a distorted self image. can't. function. So what is the solution to this problem? Look at the dude above I just quoted from. He's smart, he knows himself well and knows what he needs to limit about himself. But what's more applaudable other than taking precautions to not overthink, is to simply not overthink. It's like the best way would be thinking long term in moderation, rather than not thinking long term at all. Because if you're just all *avoid avoid, then you won't be able to think long term when you actually need to, when it's actually beneficial to you. Think about that! It's like when an alchoholic knows not to go to parties to avoid putting himself in risky situations where alchohol is present. Why not just tackle the problem directly and not be an alchoholic period. Is it really out of his control? Or isn't addiction a "choice" like many have said. Because suckily, you won't stop being an achoholic until you can sit with it in front of your face and make yourself not want it. Face the problem, hasn't that always been the right way to deal? Nonetheless, avoidance indicates some type of self awareness. But I guess acknowledgement is not fixation. It's only the first step to fixation. I seem to like making useless distinctions. Gotta cut back on that a bit.
We as human beings have many minds--the over thinker, the passive aggressive, the uncertain, the assertive, and I like how your blog reflects that. I think you're absolutely right in saying that avoiding the mind that you don't like is not the answer, but facing it, getting to know it, finding what's good about it, learning to control it, and putting it on and taking it off like a familiar shirt. AND THINKING IS GOOD; NO DISTINCTION IS USELESS. You inspire me, gurl! Embrace your many minds and be a human being!!
MWAH~! <3
-Julie
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