I thought true love would come to me the first time.

Corny line...but it does the job well.
I am truly in the depths of despair. LOL ironically my last post was about me not being dependent on others' sympathy...

eh. Back to work.

You're on your own, Julie.

There's nobody you can truly depend on but yourself, and sometimes I tend to forget that because I've become so dependent on other people. Like, how many times a day do I complain to people about my problems? And now that I think about it, what could they possibly have said to change anything? Sure, they could tell me things and make me feel better (and God love you all for that :]) but ultimately, I'm the one who has to deal with my own shit.

I like the example of doing homework. Hypothetically the teacher assigns it to YOU, making it YOUR godamn homework. Let's call this the "problem." Now, youc an deal with it however you damn well please. Ideally, you would do it on your own, but there comes the evil time where you find it too difficult to do. So you consult a friend. Your friend could teach it to you and help you understand it or they could just let you copy it. Let's call that good and bad advice (respectively). But in the end, your friend can't do the work for you. The assignment is written in your hand and has your name on it. Enjoyed my analogy didn't you?

So the point? I'm not trying to preach anything to anybody before I've practiced it myself. Maybe being more self-sufficient isn't such a bad idea. WE'll see how this goes...will it make or break Julie?